* princess sanctuary~*

2012-01-19T17:34:00.001+08:00

OMG ANG PAU Y U NO COME TO ME FASTER??

2012-01-16T12:11:00.000+08:00

Cuz now I pay the price.

2012-01-15T17:52:00.004+08:00

VACANCY

Due to the high demands during Chinese New Year, applicants are welcome to apply to sponsor yours truly for this festive season the items listed below:

New clothes
New shoes
New bag
New accessories
New hairstyle
Mani/pedicure
New car (optional)
Plane tickets for a trip (optional)

More might be listed in the days to come. Of course applicants can opt to sponsor more (or other items) based on their own sincerity. Open for application now!!

*Don't worry for the fine prints. Terms and conditions not applicable.

Disclaimer: This is merely a joke in conjunction with CNY nearing. Please do not take it seriously. Well, you can if you want to - I wouldn't mind of course haha. Have fun doing your CNY shopping readers!

2012-01-13T16:58:00.001+08:00

Picking up the pieces.

Of myself.

2012-01-12T23:51:00.003+08:00

How sad is it that in the end, both hands are empty holding nothing but bloody scars and bruises.

2012-01-11T14:00:00.002+08:00

CASH, Y U NO FALL FROM SKY??

依然记得从你口中说出再现坚决如铁.

2012-01-10T17:55:00.004+08:00

感情的世界伤害在所难免
黄昏再美总要黑夜.

2012-01-09T21:07:00.001+08:00

Good luck.

说了再见才发现再也见不到.

2012-01-08T11:09:00.002+08:00

You once promised you'll never do what he's done to me.

And now, look at you.

You're everything you said you'll never be.

And I think, you've done more damage than he ever did.

You also once told me that you've always wanted,

The love I gave to him to be given to you.

You've had it all. You've had much more than that in fact.

Now look what you've done to it.

Conscience. No longer in you I'm pretty sure. I shall leave the ghost of you and continue living my life like how it was 2 years plus back. Before you came into my life and changed all my routines with you calling me everyday and hanging out with me. It's hard to re-adapt to everything all over again after all these years, but I believe it's possible.

Smile. And the day will be better.

And I'll rise above this.

All of the memories so close to me just fade away.

2012-01-07T23:44:00.005+08:00

I remember. Do you?

That was the past. The past which I should leave behind, sad as it is. I'll never forget those times, when we were happy. Happy times are always worth remembering. But I've always got myself confused. Confused between reminiscing and dwelling. Dwelling is never good, I finally realised and snapped out of it. Constantly revolving in circles of the two years time frame. But it's time to leave these all behind at where they should belong - the past. The us from the past should reside where they are and be happy always, living an eternal life in memory lane.

And as for the present me, there's nowhere else but forward. I have no idea what the future promises, but I think I'm ready for it. Come what may and whatever happens, happens. No point wasting my tears everyday crying as if it'd change anything. Time to be happy and accept whatever life decides to throw at me.

Choose a happy ending.

Choose to be happy.

2012-01-06T17:38:00.005+08:00

Sometimes, I really wished you slapped me instead.

Really.

Then maybe, I could've meant something to you.

Better in time.

2012-01-06T16:32:00.004+08:00

I guess I deserved what I brought upon myself. All of it. You were definitely a real asshole to have done what you have done. But all in all, I guess I really deserved it. I have never been that scared and alone before. Really. Probably the longest, darkest walk in my life. I'm sure you'd know best at how chicken I can be. But I guess you don't really care the slightest bit anymore. That was when I learnt how heartless and cruel a person could be. Even a person who've once loved you with all that he/she is.

Time. Yeah, time would make everything better. I wouldn't know. But I surely hope it will.

It took me some time to digest it. The fact that how someone could treat another as such. Maybe the hatred is just too deep for them to be able to do that. And I understand. I'm quite hopeless, am I not? People tell me you were a real asshole. But all I could do was smile and shrugged it away, not being able to be mad at you.

I'm mad at myself sometimes though, at how useless I could be, the mere fact that I can't even be angry. It's also sad and pathetic, that there wasn't a single bit of self respect left in me. Maybe I thought that it didn't matter. Or maybe, we all just lost it somehow along the way without us even knowing.

But dear my once upon a time love, nothing is impossible. You always say it's impossible and whatnot, defying everything possible. How could you see any possibilities when you've already blinded yourself with the word impossible? You probably think I'm talking nonsense again. But do give it a thought when you're finally willing to.

Sometimes, I wonder how people could induce themselves into forgetting things. The memories, they haunt me everyday and everywhere. There's shadows of us everywhere I go. Even to the smallest corner, I see your face. I wonder if it's the same for you. Just wondering. Cuz it impresses me how you can wipe everything off your memory as if it's never happened. I admit it kills me inside, but what can I do but to mentally erase those images?

730 days of memory gone from your head just like that.

Take care. Till whenever.

I didn't know where to turn to.

2012-01-06T16:25:00.002+08:00

See somehow I can't forget you,
After all that we have been through.

If you didn't know this,
Boy you mean everything.
All I know is,
I will be okay.

Was it all that easy?
To just put aside your feelings.

Since there's no more you and me,
It's time I let you go so I can be free.
And live my life how it should be.
No matter how hard it is I'll be fine without you.

It'll all get better in time.

- Better In Time; Leona Lewis.

2012-01-06T01:14:00.003+08:00

Devastated. Disappointed.

Waiting for the end.

2012-01-05T00:23:00.002+08:00

Waiting for the end to come,
Wishing I had strength to stand.
This is not what I had planned,
It's out of my control.

So many things were left unsaid,
It's hard to let you go.

All I wanna do is trade this life for something new.

Sitting in an empty room,
Trying to forget the past.
This was never meant to last,
I wish it wasn't so.

Like a skyscraper.

2012-01-04T14:38:00.004+08:00

Skies are crying, I am watching
Catching tear drops in my hands
Only silence, as it's ending,
Like we never had a chance.

Do you have to make me feel like there's nothing left of me?

Would it make you feel better
To watch me while I bleed?

All my windows still are broken,
But I'm standing on my feet.

You can break everything I am,
Like I'm made of glass,
Like I'm made of paper.

Pain. What exactly is pain?

When even cuts and wounds do not hurt as much as the void left in the heart.

The greatest pain for everyone,

Is probably the pain left unseen deep inside,

Masked by a forceful smile.

Hanya kau yang mampu.

2012-01-04T02:29:00.003+08:00

Ku cuba redakan relung hati
Bayangmu yang berlalu pergi
Terlukis di dalam kenangan
Bebas bermain di hatiku

Cerita tentang masa lalu
Cerita tentang kau dan aku
Kini tinggal hanya kenangan
Kau abadi di dalam hatiku

Harusnya takkan ku biarkan engkau pergi
Membuat ku terpuruk rasa ingin mati
Derita yang mendera kapan akan berakhir
Hanya engkau yang mampu taklukkan hatiku

If this is a joke played on me, please stop it already. It's not funny at all.

Do you have to make me feel like there's nothing left of me?

2012-01-02T16:22:00.004+08:00

Numbed.

Would the rain wash away all the pain?

My head, it's going crazy. It's spinning.

Stop it please.

Lobotomy, morphine, metyrapone.

Anything that could help ease the pain.

It's like walking on broken glass barefooted.

Kill me please.

End the pain already. For good.

I'm begging you.

2012-01-02T15:33:00.003+08:00

Just because she's pretty..?

When can it ever get through to your head?

We found love in a hopeless place.

2011-12-30T16:57:00.011+08:00

Yeap, it's the time for the mandatory year end post again.

I know I shouldn't start by being whiny and all but I think year 2011 hasn't exactly been treating me too well. Things took at 360 degree change through the entire year and things aren't really the same anymore. I don't know if the change is for the better or for worse, but yeah, let's keep an optimistic mind and hope it's for the better.

I don't even think that I wanna flashback through the entire year which has just passed us by. It was nothing but a big mess filled with tears and a sprinkle of laughter. Quite an emotional year I must say. Due to various reasons. But what I'm sure of is that, time really did fly - too fast in fact. Hello's and goodbye's, too many to count.

Excitement, anxiety, heartbreak, disappointment, drama - check.

Moving away from the darker side, 2011 wasn't exactly filled with 365 days of sadness/shit. It was heartwarming that I managed to catch up with the few of my close friends who flew back from overseas, some back for good. Unfortunately all of them came back different times of the year so we couldn't really all be together to catch up for old times' sake. Well, better this than not seeing them at all. Through the year, I also managed to gain a lot of experience in the working field and obviously helped me build my future path slowly. Back to studying for me next year I guess.

Partying has mellowed down by a lot through the year (It's the age I swear). Honestly, though still being rather young, I feel a tad bit too old to be partying like old times already. Sometimes I really wonder how I found the energy and stamina to be partying so hard like I did back then. Not that it's something to be proud about but yeah, still am proud to say I've lived my time and had my share of fun. Now it's more like mamak with a glass of limau ais :)

Relationships. Things come and go in life, and I guess relationships are just one of it. It's pretty obvious from all the previous posts I guess but yes, my relationship with the Smelly has ended. It was a great relationship we had and of course we've had our happy times together, but well, things had to come to an end. Things definitely weren't pretty but all in all, we'll be fine and we'll come out of this as better individuals I hope. Let's hope we'll meet someone new in the future and be happy with them. Who knows, they might even just be right next to us :)

Oh and I can drive much much better now compared to last year already! Yay.

As for New Year's resolution, just as last year's, I choose to have none. Not because I'm lazy just that I don't see a point in it anymore. What's the point in making New Year's resolution when most of us don't keep to it? Ask yourself, how many people actually last through the year keeping them?

Oh yeah, did I mention how my year have been filled with 9gag nonsense too? Which explains all the meme being placed in this post. To those who've never heard of 9gag, no matter what you do, do not, I mean do NOT enter the site. It's evil. It sucks all the soul in you and it's an endless dark pit in there. So for your goodness' sake, please refrain yourself from entering the site. I kid you not. Speaking from experience.

Anyhoots, a great sorry to anyone whom I've offended in any way through the year and a big thank you for all those who've been there when I was down. Have a blessed blessed new year to come!

And here, not in any specific sequence (in other words, random):

To you, honestly I have to say that I am indeed disappointed and sad in what we've became. Distance may separate people from each other, but I never knew it would tear us apart this much. I really miss the friendship we had few years back, we were closer than ever. Then distance came along and both of us met new people in our lives and eventually have different views/goals in life. Goodbye my friend. Take care while you're far far away. I'll always miss you, or at least who I once thought you were - my bestest friend once upon a time.

To you, this is also another time when "Sorry" wouldn't make things any better. I guess it has also been a rough year for you too. Since you've always been cryptic (and I know you are extremely smart), I know you'll be able to decipher this. It's not hard. May the sun shine again after the long great storm. Thank you for always being there supporting me when there was nobody else to hold me, despite yourself being burnt out. And no, I don't need no time machine. It's the future which matters, not the past. And I think I know where my future lies :)

To you, thank you so much for being such a great friend in the past few years. Always there when I needed you to (even though I was ditched once by you but I think we've pestered you enough on that time). I am also grateful that you have never worn a mask since Day 1 I met you and have always been true to your emotions. Cheesy much but may we always be this way even as time goes by.

To you, a thousand or a million "Sorry" would never bring you back or make things better. Thank you so much for the past 2 years. Meeting you and being your friend was probably a blessing in disguise and I was so lucky to have been loved by you once so dearly. I'll always remember your Two Is Better Than One song haha! Let's not mention the sorry part anymore, not in this post at least. It's been a rough year for us I'm sure and may you be much happier in the year to come. May your every day be filled with smiles and laughter. Take care please and thank you once again, for everything :)

Mmm, two new colour codes replacing the old ones heheh.

That's a wrap for the whole year! May 2012 ~~not be the end of the world~~ be a great year ahead with many many good things waiting for us! Lovers, be naughty and singles out there, go mingle!

Start thinking who you'd be kissing tomorrow night teehee :D

Me gusta!

To those thinking why in the world did I end the post with such an ugly face, it isn't exactly ugly. Do go to knowyourmeme.com and read up on me gusta wtf. Yeah, have a great NYE celebration!

x

Sorry that I loved you.

2011-12-30T16:20:00.002+08:00

For all of the time that I tried for your smile
For making you think that I was worth the while
So your love love love love love would be mine.

For sending you flowers and holding your hand
That no one was there to take a stand
But then love love love made us blind.

And I'm so sorry that I hurt you
Sorry that I fell through
Sorry I was falling in love with you.
I'm sorry that it came true
But sorry doesn't turn back time.

For all that I have done to you
I wish that I could make it right.

So sorry that I loved you
Sorry that I needed you
Sorry that I held you tight.

And I'm so sorry for,
Making you love me and saying goodbye.
For being the one that taught you how to cry
It was love love love and it passed us by.

For giving you every thing that you dreamed
For taking it back when I fled the scene
Sorry love, for wasting your time.

An apology now after all of this time
Won't make my difference tonight
But I'm hoping "I'm Sorry." will open your mind
To love love love love in your life.

I'm sorry that I hurt you
Sorry that I loved you.

The last message from me to you. Sorry.

2011-12-29T17:49:00.001+08:00

Goodbye.

The Story Of Us.

2011-12-29T16:55:00.002+08:00

从前从前，女孩跟男孩是非常好的朋友。一天不见面总觉得欠缺了什么般。
他们一起吃饭，一起逛街，一起看戏，一起做些无聊事。
终于，男孩跟女孩从好朋友发展成恋人。
男孩很温柔细心，把女孩照顾得无微不至，总是保护着她。
而女孩很爱玩，每天缠着男孩做些有的没的。
他们也开始认识彼此身边的朋友。

开心的时光总过的太快。
一眨眼，两年过去了。
男孩不知不觉中把女孩给忽略了。
女孩也不知不觉中开始不懂得珍惜了。把男孩做的所有事情当作理所当然。
他们开始吵架了。不愉快的事情接二连三的发生。
男孩脾气变坏了，女孩哭了。

这时唯一安慰女孩的也只有男孩的另一位好朋友。
到最后，男孩后悔了。努力挽回女孩的心。
可是女孩却走得太远，回不了头。
也或许，
是不想回头。

结果，彼此给了感情一次又一次的机会。
男孩不断的努力，想尽办法把女孩变回当初认识的女孩。
有天，男孩发现原来女孩真的离开太远了。
精疲力尽的男孩，竟然不觉得痛苦也不觉得失望。
只是不想再努力了，彻底的放弃挽留女孩。
至少对自己是种解脱。

顿然明白已已渐渐把男孩推开的女孩突然记得当初的美好。
问自己
为什么当时如此愚蠢。
为什么不懂得珍惜身边的男孩。
为什么忘了爱护男孩。
为什么亲手把感情给摧毁。

于是女孩尝试挽留男孩。
可是已完全放弃的男孩再也不想像以前那样纠缠下去。
他们，结束了。

女孩后悔了，崩溃了，哭了。
可是这全都无法再把男孩留下来。
想起以往的回忆，快乐的，不快乐的都有。通通都值得留念。
甚至当初的友情都完全消失掉了。

兜兜转转，得到的又是什么？
从开始只想要跟男孩快乐过日子到贪心得不断要求更好的女孩
到最后失去的比得到的更多。
剩下的又是什么？

使得每个人都伤痕累累，两败俱伤。
最初的单纯去了哪里？
而当初的笑容跟着时光的流去消失掉了吗？

如果说能把时间倒流，
我猜
女孩也一定想要回到两年前的他们吧。
回到那时快快乐乐牵着手的女孩跟男孩。
就算吵架也好，哭泣也好，
总比现在的后悔末及来的好。

请珍惜身边爱你的人。

2011-12-28T16:09:00.004+08:00

"It's suspended there to remind us before we pop the champagne and celebrate the new year, to stop and reflect on the year that has gone by.
To remember both our triumphs and our missteps, our promises made and broken. The times we opened ourselves up to great adventures or closed ourselves down for fear of getting hurt because that is what new years is all about- getting another chance.
A chance to forgive, to do better, to do more, to give more, to love more. And stop worrying about what if and start embracing what would be. So when that ball drops at midnight and it will drop, let's remember to be nice to each other, kind to each other. And not just tonight but all year long."
- Hilary Swank, New Year's Eve.

Beyond the door there's peace I'm sure, and I know there'll be no more tears in heaven.

2011-12-27T12:19:00.002+08:00

If I die young,
Bury me in satin,
Lay me down on a bed of roses
Sink me in the river at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song.

There's a boy here in town says he'll love me forever,
Who would've known forever could be severed by
The sharp knife of a short life?

Well, I've had just enough time.

I won't see you tonight.

2011-12-27T12:11:00.003+08:00

Cry alone, I've gone away
No more nights, no more pain
I've gone alone, took all my strength
I've made the change,
I won't see you tonight.

Building up inside of me
A place so dark, so cold, I had to set me free.
Don't mourn for me,
You're not the one to place the blame
As bottles call my name I won't see you tonight.

Sorrow sank deep inside my blood
All the ones around me
I cared for and most of all I loved
But I can't see myself that way
Please don't forget me or cry while I'm away.

So far away, I'm gone.
Please don't follow me tonight
And while I'm gone everything will be alright.

2011-12-22T14:27:00.002+08:00

So this is how it feels to be completely burnt out.

2011-12-21T13:27:00.001+08:00

Times change.

That's all I have left to say.

2011-12-17T17:16:00.002+08:00

"Millionaires" by Example just randomly played.

And I realised I was too afraid to hear that song.

And the next thing I knew, tears starting rolling down and I couldn't control myself.

I'm sorry.

2011-12-17T04:34:00.004+08:00

It's hours like this when my thoughts haunt me and feeds on my sleep,

Making the past clearer than ever in the dark.

2011-12-16T12:45:00.002+08:00

Talk about the future like we had a clue,
Never planned that one day I'd be losing you.

It's time to face the music, I'm no longer your muse.

2011-12-15T17:35:00.000+08:00

I wish you could see what I see.

And believe in what I believe.

一个人, 偶尔感到寂寞在所难免.

2011-12-15T16:03:00.002+08:00

Hurt.

I've been facing this blank page so almost half an hour already and the only word I can come up with is that. Thinking of the past "conversations" we had, just felt like the person I used to love was gone. Completely gone. And it's just a complete stranger whom I've been talking to, replying me just for the sake of replying.

Maybe, you were right - I don't deserve anything. And you have every right to be the way you are right now. The very thought of you smiling to your phone while texting another girl kills me. I can't force you and neither can I accept it. Guess I should just continue ignoring and filtering that thought out of me - eventually filtering every thought of you out of my mind too. And move on, like how you did so effortlessly.

Teach me. How to completely stop loving someone who you've been loving so deeply for the past two years in just a day or two? And how to forget how much you care about that someone and act like they don't matter at all anymore to you? I need to learn that from you. You seem to be so good in that.

You gave us up. You pushed me away.

2011-12-13T14:21:00.002+08:00

Forget the what if's, and focus on what will be.

- New Year's Eve movie 2011.

And i wonder if I ever cross your mind.

2011-12-12T18:13:00.004+08:00

Remember when...

You waited for me for 2 hours right below the bar just to make sure I'm home safely and it was your birthday? You didn't want to call me and just waited downstairs because you didn't want to spoil my farewell with one of my bestest friend who was leaving for UK. Funny how I accidentally made the birthday boy wait for me for so long and you never complained a word about it.

You crashed the trip and went to the Butterfly and Bird Park with me and another friend out of the blue? I still find it funny that you were so afraid of butterflies despite them being so tiny. I even remember I threatened to give you a box of butterflies for your birthday. And do you remember the bird which blocked my way and you tried carrying me over just to scare me?

You were so bored that you accompanied me and watched 3 chick flicks back to back in 6 hours? I remember it was exactly this time of the year, nearing Christmas. We bought tickets so many times the guy even remembered us already.

You weren't feeling well and you desperately wanted someone to eat with you so you drove all the way to my place just to have claypot loushu fun? The shop's already closed for good now and I guess, we'll never be able to return to the shop and have another serving of loushu fun together anymore.

You would walk miles in Australia just to find somewhere with computer and internet connection just so you could talk to me for 5 minutes because you missed me? I remember I was in Singapore back then and night time was all I was waiting for, because you were away for 3 weeks and that was the only time I managed to talk to you. 5 minutes of complete bliss.

You were so annoyed by me countless times and at the same time, I was so angry at you because of things you never done? Come to think of it now, it was such a waste of time when it could have been quality time spent with each other.

You were so afraid to go up Tamingsari and would rather everyone call you a pussy? You were so awesome when you finally managed to take the ride the second time we revisited the place. Even though you had sweaty palms immediately and held on so tight haha.

You were freaked out of your soul when we took the ride in Genting? I can never forget that funny moment. And I also can never forget how much you hated cable car rides. Sad thing I never got to make you take a cable car ride with me.

You showed me Aaron the Round for the very first time during Valentines' Day 2 years back? I fell in love with him immediately because he was too cute and adorable. And since then, I've been hugging him to sleep every night without fail.

You were working in a gym and I had to stay there for hours just to wait for you to finish work? I was even forced to try working out as much as I hated it. But you know what? It was one of the best times I've had. Sometimes when you were free, we'd just sit around and chill or play random games with your iPad. There was even a time when you were so desperate to beat me in Sudoku and Smurfs.

Too many memories. Too many playbacks. Too many smiles. These are merely a few of the vast memories we shared and built together. I know I should never dwell on these matters anymore. I never. I never deliberately take a trip down to memory lane. In fact, I tried so hard to run away from all the fleeting memories.

Truth is, I can't get over them.

Now tell me, would the only cure be lobotomy?

I'd go back to December all the time.

2011-12-12T14:15:00.002+08:00

I'm so glad you made time to see me.
How's life? Tell me bout your family,
I haven't seen them in a while.

You've been good, busier than ever.
We small talk, work and the weather.
Your guard is up and I know why.

Because the last time you saw me still burn in the back of your mind.
You gave me roses and I left them there to die.

So this is me swallowing my pride,
Standing in front of you saying, "I'm sorry for that night,"
And I go back to December all the time.

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you.
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine.
I'd go back to December, turn around and make it all right.
I go back to December all the time.

These days I haven't been sleeping,
Staying up, playing back myself leaving.
When your birthday passed and I didn't call.

And I think about summer, all the beautiful times,
I watched you laughing from the passenger side.
Realized that I loved you in the fall.

And then the cold came, the dark days when fear crept into my mind
You gave me all your love and all I gave you was "Goodbye".

I miss your tanned skin, your sweet smile,
So good to me, so right
And how you held me in your arms that September night,
The first time you ever saw me cry.

Maybe this is wishful thinking,
Probably mindless dreaming,
But if we loved again, I swear I'd love you right.

I'd go back in time and change it but I can't.
So if the chain is on your door I understand.

- Back To December, Taylor Swift.

December was always such a great month for us. Our anniversary and of course, our favourite celebration - Christmas. I still remember how we tried to slow dance (and failed) on Christmas Eve at your house when nobody was watching. Bet you forgotten, didn't you? :)

잘가요, 내사랑.

2011-12-12T00:00:00.001+08:00

"Happy 2nd Anniversary, baby.

Let's have many more of today in our days to come together and never let go of one another, till whenever.

I love you.

12/12/2011"

...And that could have been the line I'd be posting in this space right now. I guess, it's Happy it could have been Anniversary is all that's left now.

Oftentimes, I wonder what plans you'd have in mind for today. Where you'd bring me to, what you'd do or what you'd buy, and never to forget, the roses you know I love so well. I'd also wonder what I would've gotten as our anniversary gift, or what tantrum I'd pull off on you just for the fun of it so you can come up with random words to make me happy (haha) or what I'd complain you didn't do enough.

All's nothing but an illusion conjured from nothingness,
Filled with emotions so real as if it really happened,
Scenes playing repeatedly in my head,
Smiles, hugs and kisses,
All vanished with just the blink of an eye -
Back to reality.

I'm sorry, that this day could never come anymore. I'm sorry I had to do things like this. It suddenly came gushing to my head all the names I've once made for you, the most frequently used ones being Smelly or Skunkie (not Lord Skunkie too bad). Haha funny how you actually response to these names. Sorry, just a random thought.

Oh yeah, and for the past few days, the idiot conversation kept coming to my head and when I read back the whole conversation back then, I laughed so hard. Laughing cuz it was so extremely beautiful back then. How you, my very best friend, accompanied me till wee hours in the morning and started talking nonsense cuz you were already so tired. Then came the idiot conversation where I was so blur when you were trying so hard to hint to me. And then I thought of how you pretended to jia jia hold my hand in the cinema (and even after we came out of the cinema) because I was cold. And how you'd call me lou por because I was so bossy even though I wasn't your girlfriend haha. Little did we know, 2 years down the road, we'd be where we are now. But I guess it was all worth it. And if I was given the same chance, I'd make the same decision as I did back then - which was to be your idiot :)

Anyway, I'm glad you're happier now :')

Remember all the things we wanted,
Now our memories they're haunted,
We were always meant to say goodbye.

Looking at you makes it harder,
But I know that you'll find another,
That doesn't always make you want to cry.

Started with a perfect kiss then,
We could feel the poison set in,
Perfect couldn't keep this love alive.

You know that I love you so,
Love you enough to let you go.

And I want you to know, you couldn't have loved me better.

- Already Gone, Kelly Clarkson.

Goodbye my lover.

2011-12-11T14:41:00.008+08:00

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?

It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.

I've kissed your lips and held your hand.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer and when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.

And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.

I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bare my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

:)

两个人，连一次争吵都值得纪念.

2011-12-11T14:11:00.004+08:00

I guess you'd still remember what day tomorrow could have been.

:'(

12/12.

Wish you were here.

2011-12-09T23:51:00.005+08:00

I guess I really have to come to terms with the very fact that we really ended, that there's no more we in this. No more you and I, no more we. Maybe I find it particularly hard to do so because it's been too long. Maybe just a mere 2 years to others, but it felt so much more already.

My blogging pattern have been so screwed up recently that it's basically just conversations I wanted to get through to you. I guess it's time to blog normally all over again.

I admit, it's extremely hard. This year haven't been exactly an easy one. As it is, it didn't even start off well already. Then it just got worst. In a sense that things started to screw up more and more.

I'm sorry, I'm really really sorry. I think I've said the most number of Sorry's this whole week than I ever had in my entire life. Not like it could change anything, but that was all I could do. Or cry day and night. You have no idea how terrible I feel deep inside. If I could, I would've dug this whole rotten heart out and slash out whichever part which fucked up, causing us to be where we are right now.

I'm sorry you had to fight so hard for too long on your own. I'm sorry for all the times I made you feel that way. A million sorry's and endless tears would never make a difference anymore. I'm already paying the price of my actions.

Come to think of it. Was it all really worth it? Through this whole duration, trust was shattered, friendship ties broken, smiles lost and happiness bailed on us. We've all lost more than we gained. You said you're too tired and you've lost all energy. It's just the same for me. I guess I finally know how it feels, to fight till I'm battle-scarred and finally reach the state that I feel so numbed inside out already.

So numbed that I really can't be bothered with anything anymore. Come what may.

Ultimately, I wish for your happiness and I hope you'll meet someone super awesome in the future. Someone as great as yourself. Cuz you deserve much much better. I hope she'll treat you right and love you the way you deserve to be, and lastly, love you for the part which I failed to do.

I'm sorry, I'm so so sorry. I don't know how else to express how sorry I am anymore.

And maybe, in my next life, if I ever get a chance to, I promise I'll do much better than this. I promise I'll stick to all the promises we've made together and make sure we achieve it. Like Rose. As stupid or childish as it may sound, I promise I'll be good enough to be your girl - in my next life.

I wish you all the best, my once upon a time love.

You smelly skunk.

Angels cry.

2011-12-09T15:35:00.005+08:00

Oh the lyrics it kills.

2011-12-09T14:21:00.001+08:00

其实没有我你分不清那些差别
结局还能多明显？

只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着，要怎么停呢？

2011-12-08T18:32:00.005+08:00

你曾是
我吻过我爱过也伤过
拥有过却错过的情人
这样太残忍
你现在总是可以保持陌生

You were once the person whom
I've kissed, loved and hurt.
The lover whom I've had but lost.
This is too cruel
That now you have every right to remain distant.

你吻过伱爱过也恨过
拥抱过却犯错的情人
我不能过问
没权力再问她是否对的人。

I was once the person whom
You've kissed, loved and hated
The lover whom you've hugged but wronged you.
I have not a single right to ask
If she is the right person anymore.

非要等到爱远走，分两头
才知道多不舍你走

Only realised how much I couldn't take you leaving
When love started drifting away, splitting us into two.

一直有句话要说,
你是我今生今世的守候。

I guess Google translate could never translate the last line into something which makes sense, and you probably can't care less anymore than to check this space, let alone be bothered by what it means.

I don't know what to feel already.

Imy.

Broken Strings.

2011-12-08T16:52:00.003+08:00

A song that matches us perfectly. So ironic.

Let me hold you for the last time,

It's the last chance to feel again.

But you broke me, now I can't feel anything.

When I love you, it's so untrue,

I can't even convince myself.

When I'm speaking, it's the voice of someone else.

Oh it tears me up.

I tried to hold on but it hurts too much.

I tried to forgive but it's not enough to make it all okay.

You can't play on broken strings,

You can't feel anything that your heart don't want to feel.

I can't tell you something that ain't real.

Oh the truth hurts, lies worst.

How can I give anymore when I love you a little less than before?

What are we doing?

We are turning into dust.

Playing house in the ruins of us.

Turning back to the fire when there's nothing left to save.

It's like chasing the very last train when we both know it's too late.

非要等到爱远走，分两头，才发现多不舍你走.

2011-12-08T16:29:00.001+08:00

Would it still matter to you?

就像每段爱总会有终点.

2011-12-08T00:13:00.003+08:00

Why do they make it sound so easy?

It's so sad that even words, promises and faith wouldn't work anymore.

But baby, I loved you.

Really.

I don't know how else to fight anymore.

Nothing seems to be right already.

Funny how two years down the road, I see my heart in pieces on the floor again.

Thrown by the very same person who once picked everything up and patiently mended them back together again.

I hope you're happy.

Well, I guess you are. I mean, you said you haven't been happy in the longest time ever.

And right now you are - without me.

Well, I know I'm not. How could I be happy without you, when you have been my happiness in the past 2 years?

I guess it's karma, that you broke my heart so badly this time around, and I'm not blaming anyone.

I really hope you're happy.

And it seemed everlasting, that you would always be mine.

2011-12-07T01:02:00.001+08:00

My heart shattered when Always Be My Baby was playing.

I'm so tired.

Good night you.

2011-12-07T00:58:00.002+08:00

Why must we constantly misunderstand each other?

2011-12-05T17:53:00.003+08:00

If only all the problems would go away like the hair they've cut off.

With just a snip of the blade.

On another note, I've gotten a new haircut.

You'll probably laugh at me saying I look more alien monkey or something. I wouldn't know.

Took me a rough 3-4 hours to get my hair done, and I realised my head never stopped through those hours.

And you know what's funny?

I can't even figure out what I've been trying to figure out. Like poof. My head just went blank.

Save me.

2011-12-05T11:15:00.002+08:00

It's been a week, 7 days.

And guess what's 7 days down the road.

It could have been waiting for us.

Picture perfect memories scattered all around the floor.

2011-12-05T10:45:00.004+08:00

I wish we could be like them.

I wish we could brave through the differences.

I wish we could smile like we did in the pictures.

I wish we could have lasted through.

I really thought we would.

Silly as, but once upon a time, I really thought we'd pull through and one day I'll be your lady in white and we'll have a happy future together.

Wishful thinking.

Imy, alot.

We almost had it all.

I'm about to lose my mind, you've been gone for so long.

2011-12-05T01:13:00.005+08:00

Funny how this Christmas, penguin toys seem to be everywhere and every shop suddenly decides to sell penguins.

Gets me wondering whether is it part of a joke played on me.

To constantly remind me effortlessly.

Remember how we were looking for penguin toys everywhere and we couldn't find them?

And now, they're everywhere.

As if they're sneering at how I lost so much, at how penguins would now be past tense.

So messed up, everything is.

My head hurts.

When will it ever stop spinning?

2011-12-02T23:55:00.002+08:00

I think I should go to bed before I start crying uncontrollably again.

Yeah... I think I should.

Good night you.

也许在不同的时空，还牵着你的手.

2011-12-02T23:44:00.006+08:00

- maybe at a different dimension, i'm still holding your hand.

If only we could have had the time to travel somewhere together,

Smiling together,

Thinking that our time together will never come to an end,

And we'd have every tomorrow.

"People say that bad memories causes the most pain, but actually it's the good ones that drive you insane."

- Unknown.

What I'd do to have you here.

2011-12-02T18:11:00.002+08:00

I don't want to think anymore.

My head's everywhere. And you probably think I'm stupid, mindless, or anything harsh you can think of.

You don't, and won't want to understand my thoughts for known reasons. And I can't ask for you to understand.

I'm sorry. I'm sorry I don't think the same way you do.

For today, please let my head take a rest. And my heart too.

Imy.

Leave some morphine at my door.

2011-12-01T18:07:00.005+08:00

- cuz it'll take a whole lot of medication, to realise what we used to have, we don't have it anymore.

Just like the clouds, my eyes would the same

If you walk away

Everyday it'll rain.

Tonight I wanna cry.

2011-12-01T17:12:00.003+08:00

Hey you,

How I wished everything could be just like these two cute figurines in the picture. Simple and lovely.

Sometimes, I really wish I could turn back time, rewind everything and undo what was done. But sadly, in reality it isn't really like that. I hate how everything and anything anywhere reminds me so badly of us and how we used to be. Even the smallest detail would remind me a slight scene of what we once had. Because we knew each other that much.

How are you doing? I really hope you are doing fine. Being healthy and not hurting yourself.

I admit, that I miss everything. What we once had, what we always do, even if it was just plain routine life, our past and mostly, you. I don't know how we ended up this way. I hate the fact that I wake up crying everyday being in the worst form ever.

Great regret, self hate, disgust. It's like a cycle which haunts me alongside the memories we had every single day since.

I really really hope you're doing much better than me.

I'm sorry. I'm sorry I had to break my promises and can't fulfill the future we promised each other anymore.

With love, your alien monkey face.

In another life, I would be your girl.

2011-11-29T23:38:00.005+08:00

Touché.

The memories, they're killing me. And I'm weak.

You have no idea how weird it feels when you're not here to tuck me in to bed like how you used to do every night.

The one who got away.

2011-11-29T18:38:00.003+08:00

Talk about our future like we had a clue,
Never planned that one day I'd be losing you.

In another life, I would be your girl.
We keep all our promises, be us against the world.
In another life, I would make you stay.
So I don't have to say,
You were the one who got away.

All these money can't buy me a time machine,
Can't replace you with a million rings.

In another life, I would be your girl.
We keep all our promises, be us against the world.
In another life, I would make you stay.
So I don't have to say,
You were the one who got away.

The One Who Got Away - Katy Perry.

I wish nothing but the best for you.

2011-11-29T18:24:00.005+08:00

The gift that never got to its owner's hands.

I'll always love you, and I'm sorry.

感谢那是伱牵过我的手.

2011-10-20T23:27:00.003+08:00

我这句语气原来好像你，不就是我们爱过的证据？

差一点骗了自己骗了你，爱于被爱不一定成正比。
我知道被疼是一种运气，但我无法完全交出自己。

努力为你改变却变不了预留的伏线
以为在你身边那也算永远
仿佛还是昨天可是昨天已非常遥远

可惜不是你陪我到最后
曾一起走却走失那路口
感谢那是伱牵过我的手
还能感受那温柔。

重来.

2011-10-09T11:05:00.005+08:00

想要跟你一起走到最后，但我遗失了地图
谁给谁束缚？谁比谁辛苦？

好的事情最后虽然结束
感动十分就有十分满足。

谢谢你，是你陪我走过那些路

痛，是以后无法再给你幸福。

一百句，一千句「对不起」
也应该无法弥补对你的亏欠
我们剩下的一步，
就只有划下
遗憾的句号。

可惜不是你，陪我到最后.

2011-10-06T18:45:00.004+08:00

; Would you settle for the unchanging but unsatisfying,

Or the satisfying but uncertain?

; Would you succumb to the guilt corroding your conscience,

Or the happiness which comes at the cost of another's happiness?

You'll always be my baby.

2011-08-23T16:54:00.003+08:00

Hey you,

It's just not that easy for me to go back. Have you ever thought that maybe there's no turning back anymore? That no matter how hard we try, things are never gonna be the same anymore. I really want to go back. It's hard trying to get over things everyday when I wake up. In fact, I really dread waking up everyday.

I just want to start afresh. I just want to feel free.

I know it's killing the both of us inside. But maybe, just maybe, time will make everything better. As much as I miss you and us together, maybe it's time to move on. I hate crying everyday. It felt like it's been so long since I've woke up feeling that today is gonna be a great day. I'm so sick of feeling so pathetic everyday.

I just want to be free and happy.

And I just want to stop saying I don't know.

Now you want to be free so I'm letting you fly.

2011-08-22T14:26:00.003+08:00

Hey you,

You know... you made me realise how much tears I've cried for the past 10 days. I didn't even realise it myself till you pointed it out. Deep down some part in me, I am dying to go home. I wished everything didn't turn out the way it did right now. I wish I didn't screw up.

Maybe things have became so rotten and broken that I'd choose to start anew already. I know you think this is utter nonsense that makes completely no sense. Or you might probably be so pissed at me to think of anything else already.

It's breaking me inside, whatever that's left of my rotten heart, bit by bit. I'm too lost and I don't know what to do. I'm sorry I can't hold your hand blindly, as much as I want to. I know I'm being brainlessly stupid for doing this. I know I might probably regret all these one day. I do miss you badly and it's been too long since we've last hugged. We're both devastated I know. But what are we to do?

Every inch of my heart and body is dying to make all this come to an end. I'm on the edge.

Just shoot me, please.

Seems like it's been forever since you've been gone.

2011-08-20T11:52:00.004+08:00

Hey you,

I'm sorry I had to say all those harsh things. You have no idea how badly my heart ached hearing you that way on the phone. You have no idea how badly I wanted to go home, to where it's safe and tranquil. I'm sorry. I'm just messed up that way, or maybe like you - I am too stubborn for my own good.

I really miss those days we had, the days we'd laugh for stupid reasons and do brainless things that nobody would ever know. I'd trade the world to correct what went wrong before it became too late. I would've promised to love you right, to make myself worthy of your love. But I'm not, and nothing could change the fact that I'll never ever be worthy of such great love. I'm sorry I had to break your heart that way. I'm sorry.

Please, take good care of yourself no matter what. Promise me.

Where'd you go, I miss you so.

2011-08-18T11:39:00.002+08:00

Hey you,

How are you doing? Have you been studying? Have you been hitting the gym everyday? Have you been doing your chores on time? Have you been smoking less? Have you been smiling more?

Funny how it feels like it was such a blessing that we had, though the life we had was a routine. Sadly, we never knew how to appreciate those days which flew by just like that. We always thought we had tomorrow. I always thought I'd have everyday to do the same things with you over and over again. I'd do anything to turn back time, I'd give my life for that.

If only I had the courage to fight. It sucks, knowing that I can't seem to fight anymore even though you'd forgive everything that's happened. If only I had the courage to face you after all that's happened.

I miss you.

Remember the last time I went Penang, I told you I bought us something? I guess, it's a gift I never managed to pass to you. I thought these pigs were so extremely cute and reminded me of us. And probably Rose too. I wanted to place them on the dashboard of your car. I wanted you to like them too.

I guess it's never happening already. I'm sorry, love.

I'm sorry this had to happen to us.

2011-08-16T17:30:00.003+08:00

谢谢你从来没有觉得我不够好，
谢谢你守护我的每一分每一秒，
谢谢当天塌下来你也会帮我顶着.

Thank you for never thinking that I wasn't good enough.
Thank you for always being there for me
every minute and every second.
Thank you for protecting me
even if the sky were to collapse on us.

也许以後再也没人比你更爱我，
也许以後我也不可能再那样活，
每当想起你的时候快乐都比较多，
也许快乐是时间的幽默.

Maybe nobody would ever love me like you did anymore.
Maybe I can never live that way anymore.
And every time I think of you,
It is always flooded with happiness.
And maybe,
Happiness was a joke time played on us.

When you're gone, the pieces of my heart are missing you.

2011-08-16T16:44:00.002+08:00

I know sorry means nothing to you. I know you too well to know that... but I really can't come up with anything else to say other than sorry.

I wished we could back in time and stop whatever that was breaking us, bit by bit. I wished we there was pause or rewind button, to rewind everything that went wrong and to pause those happy times a long long time ago. So long ago that we probably have forgotten them ourselves. Those smiles we had, we were so happy. I wished.

I'm sorry I'm such a mess right now. I'm sorry I had to put you through this.

There's nothing left to say.

2011-08-14T13:23:00.002+08:00

I can see the pain living in your eyes
And I know how hard you try.
You deserve to have so much more,
I can feel your heart and I sympathize.
And I'll never criticize
All you've ever meant to my life.

I don't want to let you down,
I don't want to lead you on,
I don't want to hold you back from where you might belong.

You would never ask me why my heart is so disguised
I just can't live a lie anymore.
I would rather hurt myself than to ever make you cry
There's nothing left to say but goodbye.

You deserve the chance and the kind of love
I'm not sure I'm worthy of.
Losing you is painful to me.

I would rather hurt myself than to ever make you cry.
There's nothing left to try,
Though it's gonna hurt us both,
There's no other way than to say goodbye.

- Goodbye by Air Supply.

如果抱歉有用的话...

2011-08-12T11:26:00.003+08:00

对不起。
很不负责任的把选择权交给了你。

对不起。
很自私的放弃了我们的一切。

对不起。
还未能好好的把所有的爱都给你。

对不起。
忘记了牵着你的手，让自己不小心的走错路。

对不起。
很任性的遗弃了说好的永远。

对不起。
很愚蠢的把我们的幸福留在转角。

对不起。
已经无法跟你完成曾对彼此承诺过的梦。

对不起。
总是学不会珍惜拥有的一切。

对不起。
要等到最后才发现原来时间不是必然的。

对不起。
因为我的粗心让你伤透了心。

对不起
成为你的错爱，浪费了你的温柔。

或许
是我不配吧。

也或许
我没那种福分做那个
你会抱在胸怀小心翼翼疼的那个女孩吧。

愿你早日找到那个会好好珍惜和爱你的那个女孩。
她...
一定会是全世界
最幸福的女人。

这我很肯定，
因为
我也曾经以为我会是那个女人。

亲爱的，
对不起。

但愿人长久.

2011-07-07T10:40:00.002+08:00

人有悲欢离合, 月有阴晴圆缺
此事古难全

但愿人长久, 千里共婵娟.

七夕节快乐!

今日は七夕だよん！

恋人達が皆ずっと幸せでいるように願いましょう！

Today is the Chinese Valentines' Day (July 7th) and coincidentally is also the Japanese Valentines' Day which is more commonly known as Tanabata. Each Chinese kid would probably already have heard about the story already, which was quite a romantic one back then actually.

For those ~~bananas~~ who haven't heard of the story yet, please click here.

Do enjoy. And may all the lovers in the world have a happy and joyous path ahead with each other :)

I ain't gonna be just a face in the crowd, you're gonna hear my voice when I shout it out loud.

2011-06-30T10:04:00.009+08:00

Omg a very very overdue post! I completely forgot about it until well, till I was looking around my albums and remembered that I haven't posted anything about this on my blog.

Two weeks ago, I got the chance to work along the people who organized the Japan Super GT race in Malaysia, which was obviously held in the F1 Circuit in Sepang. Worked as the Japanese translator/interpreter for the entire event which lasted for 3 days.

Day 1: Race Practice

My uniform!

The awesome view of the track from the HQ office.

Needless to say, it was easy to acquire a good view of the entire race without the need to join the hassle in the crowd at the Grandstand with food and chilled drinks :)

The Media Center, where all the media people are stationed at.

Practicing.

Day 2: Qualifying Race

Started the morning by helping abit here and there since I was rather free.

Meet Galvin, who was kind enough to walk around the entire place with me to paste these soft boards.

I swear, the place is huge. I'm pretty sure those who have actually been to the Sepang race track would know how far of a walk the entire place is - and this includes the Paddock area. Crazy walk.

A rather cmi picture of us but yeah.

Galvin and I sabo-ed a buggy and went around driving it, which saved so much of walking for us! As jackoon as it might sound, it was my first time driving a buggy. It felt like driving a bumper car, really. And since then, we've been driving that buggy for 2 consecutive days till we got so sick of it we'd rather walk (wtf).

For some reasons, this reminds me of Fast & Furious haha.

One of the cars in the car show. There were so many cars ranging from your usual Ferrari, Porsche, Lambo, Vespa, Harley's, to even Rolls Royce (I felt like a low life, really).

Met Yvonne who was also working there. It's been so long since I've last seen her!

(Excuse my cmi face please. It's the FHM GND last year, you can't blame me for looking ugly next to her)

This, is a small part of the ultimate long queue waiting to enter for the pitwalk.

Here's a little anal thing I'd like to share. Galvin and I were so bored we decided to piss people off by just walking in while everyone else was still waiting. Just because we had the all access pass which enabled us to enter wherever and whenever we want. What asses we were seriously (lol).

Day 3: The Actual Race

Clearly, this is the real deal but by this time, our ears were half deaf already for obvious reasons. My left eardrum was literally hurting on the third/last day already.

This, is something I found really cool.

Before the race started, there was a gathering of super cars for the Malaysian Book of Records and it reached a total number of 405 super cars on the track. I have never ever seen so many super cars all gathered in one place in the past 20 over years of my life - and man, it was bloody awesome even for a non-car person like me.

One of the snapshots taken from the track during the gathering (all thanks to the access pass nonetheless).

The deafening race.

Meet Ayami, the Japanese GT Queen who I was suppose to be doing translating for also.

She is super super cute omg! Haha now I sound like one of those fangirls. And please excuse my cmi face yet again.

The Smelly came to visit too! :D

Fortunately, I managed to catch the very beautiful sunset in Sepang right when the entire event ended. I felt so lucky at that moment.

Yeap, that concluded my entire weekend back then. The whole routine of waking up at 5am (on a bloody weekend!) and only sleeping around 12am for three consecutive days. Not complaining though. It was a great experience anyone could have at this age and I'm happy that I managed to be exposed to events as such. It's really different from attending the race for the fun of it.

And lastly, a vain self pic to conclude the post :)

Hee!

记得.

2011-06-27T10:09:00.003+08:00

虽然我也害怕
在天黑了以后我们都不知道会有以后.

I'm also afraid,
That we might not have tomorrow after the dark ends.

我们都累了, 却没办法往回走
两个心都迷惑
怎么说, 怎么说都没有救

We're both sick and tired but we can't look back anymore,
Both hearts lost,
And no words could save anything already.

亲爱的, 为什么?
也许你也不懂
两个相爱的人等着对方先说想分开的理由.

Love, tell me why.
But maybe you might not know why either.
The reason why two lovers are waiting for each other to say goodbye.

谁还记得爱情开始变化的时候?
我和你的眼中看见了不同的天空
走得太远终于走到分岔路的路口
是不是你和我要有两个相反的梦?

Who'd still remember when did love started to change?
We started to see a different sky in our eyes.
We moved too far and now we're at the intersection
Is it that both of us have to have opposite dreams?

我和你手牵手说要一起走到最后...

We promised that we'd hold hands and walk till the very end.

So many things were left unsaid, it's hard to let you go.

2011-06-22T11:01:00.000+08:00

忠诚.

简简单单的两个字, 含义却那么重.
至少对我是.

感情就像纯白的一张纸.
一开始时干干净净.
时间久了, 伤痕多了, 也多了眼泪的痕迹.
互相相爱到互相伤害
到最后谁又会记得当初的美好?

感情, 就是这样.
既美丽又凄美.

人说失去了才懂得珍惜.
可是我更加认同人不是不懂得珍惜,
只是拥有时觉得不可能有一天会失去
所以选择不珍惜.

人说如果跟某人有缘分的话
就算现在不能在一起
以后总有一天是会在一起的.
这句话, 足够让我相信吗?

如果能让我们在读Taylor's时就认识,
或许结果会不一样.
如果能让我们在几年后才认识,
或许结果也会不一样.
可是为什么偏偏让我们在这时相识?
也许只能说一句天意弄人吧.

放手, 我做到吗?
潇洒两个字离我很远, 该怎么办?

你曾是我吻过, 我爱过也伤过
拥有过却错过的情人
你吻过, 你爱过也恨过
拥抱过却犯错的情人.

非要等到爱远走分两头
才知道多不舍你走
才知道谁都怕寂寞.

2011-06-20T15:46:00.000+08:00

For all we know, we might not have tomorrow...

咖啡.

2011-06-13T14:15:00.003+08:00

一场失败的爱情像个笑话
热的时候心乱如麻
冷了以后看见自己够傻
人怎么会如此容易无法自拔?

一场无味的爱情像个谎话
甜的时候只相信它
苦了以后每一句都可怕
人怎么如此难以了无牵挂?

安静.

2011-06-09T11:08:00.004+08:00

Speechless. Have been looping this song the whole day.

安静 by Jay Chou

你说你也会难过我不相信
牵着你陪着我也只是曾经
希望他是真的比我还要爱你
我才会逼我自己离开.

I don't believe when you said you'll be upset too
Holding you and having you by my side has now become the past.
I really hope that he will love you much more than I do
Then only I'll force myself out of this.

你要我说多难堪, 我根本不想分开
为什么还要我用微笑来带过?
我没有这种天份, 包容你也接受他
不用担心地太多, 我会一直好好过.

How do you want me to be? I don't even want to part.
Why must you still want me to leave with a smile?
I am not talented enough,
To accept that you have him too.
Don't worry too much about me, I'll be fine.

你已经远远离开, 我也会慢慢走开
为什么我连分开都迁就着你?
我真的没有天份, 安静得没这么快
我会学着放弃你
是因为我太爱你.

You're walking further away and I'll slowly walk away too.
Why is it that I still listen to you when we part?
I am really not talented enough.
I will learn to slowly let you go,
That's because I love you too much.

Kill me.

至少不再让你离我而去.

2011-06-07T11:06:00.003+08:00

"试着抱你在怀里
羞怯的脸带有一点稚气.

试着让故事继续
分散时间的注意
这样挽留不知还来不来得及
想回到过去."

Day 20: A Song You Listen To When You're Angry

2011-06-03T14:08:00.001+08:00

Welcome To My Life by Simple Plan

Day 19: A Song From Your Favourite Album.

2011-06-02T14:04:00.000+08:00

发如雪 by Jay Chou

All time favourite song. All fucking time.

Keep on dancing till the world ends.

2011-06-01T10:20:00.003+08:00

After a long long hiatus from my partying days, finally popped to Zouk for Jee King's big day with a few more friends, and his missus of course.

We had dinner at Delicious, Bangsar before heading over to Zouk with the Smelly too.

The birthday boy with the lala pose wtf.

The durian cake was so awesome! But we couldn't have too much in case we smell horrible in the club later ahaha.

The King of the day and his missus.

The Smelly :)

At Zouk with the rest of the group!

Without the birthday boy. Reason being he was constantly missing from the place.

With the buddy! :3

Not many pictures were taken and all were taken using my phone, which explains the bad quality. And as for the last picture, vain self pic of yours truly :)

Sorry for the lack of words. I'm too lazy to type anything :x

Day 18: A Song You Wish You Heard On The Radio

2011-06-01T09:31:00.001+08:00

Always Be My Baby by David Cook

Day 17: A Song That You Hear Often On The Radio

2011-05-31T09:29:00.001+08:00

Coming Home by Diddy Dirty Money ft. Skylar Grey

Day 16: A Song You Used To Love But Now You Hate

2011-05-30T09:25:00.001+08:00

Bloody sick of this song hahaha.

童话 by 光良

不能握的手从此匿名的朋友.

2011-05-29T15:34:00.003+08:00

This is hard, really.

遗憾或后悔, 两者之间该怎么选择?
这...算是背叛吗?

只可是我又有什么资格说「遗憾」?
遗憾的是没有早点遇见你吗?
还是遗憾我们就次划下句点?
那晚仅剩那么一点的理智,
我们又能把持多久?

后悔, 是后悔没有把你捉紧
还是害怕失去了他的后悔?
选择遗憾就不会有后悔.
可是, 说真的... 我不知道该怎么办.

算了.
就写到这吧.

Day 15: A Song That Describes You

2011-05-29T11:24:00.001+08:00

Reflection by Christina Aguilera

Day 14: A Song That No One Would Expect You To Love

2011-05-28T11:17:00.000+08:00

Numb by Linkin Park

Day 13: A Song That Is A Guilty Pleasure

2011-05-27T11:16:00.000+08:00

All The Things She Said by t.A.T.u

Day 12: A Song From The Band You Hate

2011-05-26T11:13:00.002+08:00

Hmmm... good question. Which band do I actually hate? Ah, I know. I just generally dislike them.

Love Bug by Jonas Brothers

Day 11: A Song From Your Favourite Band

2011-05-25T11:11:00.001+08:00

Oh shit. I don't have a favourite band. So can I just post a song I like from any band? Heh.

That's What You Get by Paramore

Someday You Will Be Loved

2011-05-25T09:28:00.006+08:00

I once knew a girl in the years of my youth

With eyes like the summer
All beauty and truth
In the morning I fled
Left a note and it read
Someday you will be loved.

I cannot pretend that I felt any regret
Cause each broken heart will eventually mend
As the blood runs red down the needle and thread
Someday you will be loved

You'll be loved you'll be loved
Like you never have known
The memories of me
Will seem more like bad dreams
Just a series of blurs
Like I never occurred
Someday you will be loved

You may feel alone when you're falling asleep
And everytime tears roll down your cheeks
But I know your heart belongs to someone you've yet to meet
Someday you will be loved.

- Someday You Will Be Loved by Death Cab For Cutie.

Accidentally came across this song on the net. Ah, nostalgic. I can't deny that there was this weird feeling inside of me which I can't put into words when I first saw the lyrics to this song. Time flies. It's been that long.

To all those who's once have their heart brokened. :)

Day 10: A Song That Makes You Sleep

2011-05-24T16:21:00.000+08:00

Cuppycake Song

This song is too cute!! Like a lullaby.

Day 9: A Song You Can Dance To

2011-05-23T16:16:00.000+08:00

Like A G6 by Far East Movement

Day 8: A Song That You Know All The Words To

2011-05-22T16:14:00.000+08:00

I Don't Wanna Miss A Thing by Aerosmith

A classic.

Day 7: A Song That Reminds You Of A Certain Event

2011-05-21T16:06:00.000+08:00

Hatin' On The Club by Rihanna ft. The Dream

Zouk @11/4/2009.

Day 6: A Song That Reminds You Of Somewhere

2011-05-20T16:01:00.000+08:00

Pokerface by Lady Gaga

Singapore with the Cousin! A very memorable song till now, due to unforeseen circumstances one fine night in Sg hahaha. Can never forget that.

Day 5: A Song That Reminds You Of Someone

2011-05-19T15:54:00.000+08:00

Two Is Better Than One by Boys Like Girls ft. Taylor Swift

You, definitely :)

Day 4: A Song That Makes You Sad

2011-05-18T15:47:00.000+08:00

Let Go by m-flo loves yoshika

Never fails to bring a stinging pain to my heart.

Day 3: A Song That Makes You Happy

2011-05-17T15:39:00.000+08:00

If We Ever Meet Again by Timbaland ft. Katy Perry

One of the happiest times I've had in some time. Back when partying was a daily routine with my loves. It wasn't the partying that was enjoyable. It was the great company and laughter which accompanied the fun.

This song never fails to remind me of them. My partners in crime, regardless whether in class, or outside.